This wasn't an easy decision for us. Chris is currently in school and will be for another 2 years. That means that I am the only one bringing in an income from Sept - April. And aside from the financial challenge of having a child, there is the added challenge of Chris possibly feeling pulled in too many directions when he should be focusing on his studies, or maybe feeling guilty if he needs to leave to go to Starbucks to write a paper and I am at my wits end with a crying baby. So many things to consider, and not a decision to be made lightly!
We first had the desire to have a baby before we had even been married a year. When we were engaged and first married we were pretty set in the "not until Chris is done school" decision, but it didn't take long for that to change. Anyone that knows us isn't surprised in the least by this! We prayed about it in March of 2012 and both felt like Jesus was saying "not now" I brought it up again in December of 2012 when we were on vacation in Mexico. We agreed to talk about it further. To be honest, I think we were both a bit nervous that Jesus would say no again. It was really hard the last time- to both really want it, but not feel like it was quite right.... but want to ignore that feeling so we could do it anyways. It was a hard journey and when the answer came up no it was really difficult to listen!